Well, I am really bad at doing these things, not sure who really reads them, but oh well. Well it is about 5 weeks and counting till we are officially out of Rexburg. We are super excited and super scared, since we have no idea where we are going. I am envious of people who have had jobs lined up for months but at the same time, it is helping Scott and I grow closer, lets just say we spend a lot of time on our knees lately.
School is crazy, I also envy those people who take nothing but like bowling their last semester, mine are full of advanced French Literature, Sociology classes, analysis and sewing. Speaking of sewing, I am taking a home decor sewing class, and I love it! It is my outlet for my crazy life. I am also working on trying to not let myself get stressed.
Scott is the engine that could. He is a trooper and I have a lot of respect for him. He is working 2 jobs, going to school full time, working on his BFA and trying to find a job. I sure love him for his hard work.
Life has been crazy and hectect,But we count our blessing daily. I know that the Lord has pushed me through darkness and guided me when I thought that I could not take anymore, but I finally came to my purpose in life at a moment, and suddenly he blesses me in all aspects.
Have a new nephew and niece, and we love them both to pieces. I am honestly going to be the best aunt and spoil them all rotten.
Well this is about it for now. I hope life is good for everyone. I want to hear from everyone about their lives.
Love you all.
Thursday, November 03, 2011
Friday, February 25, 2011
Hopes and Trials
So this is a sentimental post. I am not sure really how many people will read it. But i wanted to write about my thoughts at this time, my thoughts are all very jumbled so bare with me.
Today I found out that I will be an aunt again. My brother Chance and his wife megan are pregnant with their first baby. I know they are most likely not going to read this, but oh well. Anyways. I am very happy for them. Really and truely am. But at the same time...sad...
For those who do not know Scott and I have been trying for a baby for a while and we are still not pregnant. But things were good before this. Scott gave me a blessing and I felt very comforted that things would happen in the Lord's time. However, today hearing that wonderful news, broke me down quiet a lot. I do not remember the last time I ran to my room threw myself on my bed and cried. And cried and kept crying. I went for comfort to my best friend Carrie. Scott was at work at the time and I did not want to worry him. Carrie loved me and helped me realize that it would all be okay. She went through the same thing. And I know that many people do. Still the feelings lingered and I still needed to cry. So I cried for a couple more hours.
I felt robbed and that it was all unfair. I have been married longer than my brother and Scott and I have been trying longer. My brother and his wife got pregnant within the first week or so of trying. So that made it even worse. I kept feeling like something is wrong with me and why me? Pity party on my end. Scott came home and held me for hours. Loving me and soothing me. I finally cried myself to sleep with a massive migraine. Woke up, feel numb and here we are.
I know that the Lord has a plan for me, and tells me to be patient, that my time will come. And the truth is. When people are trying to get pregnant, everyone around them starts to get pregnant before they do. I can do nothing now except wait and hope. I know that many people have gone through this, and for those women, they understand how I feel. Sometimes women do not want advice or to hear "I have been there too" sometimes women just want to know that its okay to cry and say....life's not fair sometimes.
But through all of this, I know that in time i will come to feel very happy for them completely. For megan is healthy and so is their baby. And that is what is really important.
Today I found out that I will be an aunt again. My brother Chance and his wife megan are pregnant with their first baby. I know they are most likely not going to read this, but oh well. Anyways. I am very happy for them. Really and truely am. But at the same time...sad...
For those who do not know Scott and I have been trying for a baby for a while and we are still not pregnant. But things were good before this. Scott gave me a blessing and I felt very comforted that things would happen in the Lord's time. However, today hearing that wonderful news, broke me down quiet a lot. I do not remember the last time I ran to my room threw myself on my bed and cried. And cried and kept crying. I went for comfort to my best friend Carrie. Scott was at work at the time and I did not want to worry him. Carrie loved me and helped me realize that it would all be okay. She went through the same thing. And I know that many people do. Still the feelings lingered and I still needed to cry. So I cried for a couple more hours.
I felt robbed and that it was all unfair. I have been married longer than my brother and Scott and I have been trying longer. My brother and his wife got pregnant within the first week or so of trying. So that made it even worse. I kept feeling like something is wrong with me and why me? Pity party on my end. Scott came home and held me for hours. Loving me and soothing me. I finally cried myself to sleep with a massive migraine. Woke up, feel numb and here we are.
I know that the Lord has a plan for me, and tells me to be patient, that my time will come. And the truth is. When people are trying to get pregnant, everyone around them starts to get pregnant before they do. I can do nothing now except wait and hope. I know that many people have gone through this, and for those women, they understand how I feel. Sometimes women do not want advice or to hear "I have been there too" sometimes women just want to know that its okay to cry and say....life's not fair sometimes.
But through all of this, I know that in time i will come to feel very happy for them completely. For megan is healthy and so is their baby. And that is what is really important.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Valentines Day
I hope everyone had a great Valentines Day. I know i did, things were great and I love getting my love notes from Scott. I feel very blessed to have him in my life...the amount of love we share is unnatural...lol
We went out to dinner to Famous Daves with some of our great friends...food was amazing as was the company.
It was a great day for celebrating love in every way!
We went out to dinner to Famous Daves with some of our great friends...food was amazing as was the company.
It was a great day for celebrating love in every way!
Wednesday, February 09, 2011
Baby your a firework!
Okay, this is my new favorite song....very inspiring. Its great, and its on GLEE, so double plus!
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Monday, February 07, 2011
GLEE!!!!
Okay, just let me tell you all about my love for GLEE!!!
It is the greatest show ever created and I cannot go a day without enjoying their wonderful music! Every Tuesday I jump up in down in front of the TV waiting for it to come on. It's quite sad...but what can I say. I love their music and stories. If you are not a fan of GLEE, you need help and therapy!!!
The music playing on my BLOG is all GLEE!!!
p.s. I LOVE FINN! He is my secret lover...hhheheehe
Thursday, February 03, 2011
Okay, starting over
Well, what can I say...I don't blog. But I need to. There are a lot of people that are wanting to see a little bit into our lives. Well here it is.
We are both almost done with School. We have 1 more semester left. We graduate in July hopefully. (cross your fingers) We are still here in Rexburg and are hoping to leave soon. Things are pretty normal. It winter and cold, and we are both off track, but I am taking one class...statistics...and i regret having to take thing class.
Scott is looking for jobs now after school for Graphic design and i am looking into grad schools for me. It is a little unnerving, but we are growing up. Lots has happened and i really don't feel like going into everything. But let's hope that I can remember to update this thing.
Oh, and our camera was stolen so there might now be as many pictures.
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